by Marilyn Knowles Wilke

Created on: July 26, 2008

I had always heard that being sensual was the way to attract someone. I had been married for 18 years and never really felt very sensual, but this was due a husband who did not know how to make me feel sensual. In turn, I felt my body could never be sexy or desired by anyone. So, when a younger man fell in love with me, I asked him what attracted him the most. I knew it could not be my body because after six c-sections, it was hardly considered a sensual one.

Falling in love as a girl lead to holding hands and making sure my hair was perfect for my date. I never worried about being sensual even though I am sure I could have used my body in a very sensual way if I was not raised to believe that even French kissing lead to sex. So when I posed this question to my younger man, a man who was not only hot to look at, but so sexy I had never imagined he would fall in love with my overweight, aged body. I, myself, was overweight so much, that I pictured myself in one of those commercials about stapling your stomach or weight watchers, but this man answered me as if I was a swim model.

He said, as we lay in each other's arms, "You are so sexy," He then made love to me in a way I never even knew existed. I learned a lot about being sensual from a man who was a 21 year old virgin. Sure, he had read a lot of books, but this was the real thing. He helped me up from the bed and turned on what later became our song. He pulled me to him, his tall perfect body against my overweight, short frame and began slow dancing. I soon felt more sensual and began kissing his perfect stomach and pulled him closer to my height to kiss his chest and neck. I was dressed in a soft, white, lacy nightgown. He held me at a distance and told me that I looked like an angel. This only made me feel more sexy and beautiful.

With my ex-husband, everything had been so matter-of-fact and routine that I just knew where it would end up. As usual, I would watch as he rolled over and went to sleep, smiling and satisfied. I would be left there wondering what had just happened. Not with my new love, the man I soon married after only a short courtship. This man showed me what sensuality really was. It was not just two perfect bodies eligible to be seen on some of those nasty x-rated films which I have only heard about, but it was two people who truly loved each other and cared about what the other was feeling. For us, it would start out with him coming home from a long day and pulling me into the shower with

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