by Gloria Gibson

Created on: June 26, 2008

My Christmas wish this year will be
That my Mom and Dad, will just love me
For years now, I've watched them growing apart
Maybe my wish will give them, a brand new start

You know I love my Dad with all of my heart
Maybe it is my fault they've grown apart
People say that children don't feel the pain
Then what of my pillows, their all tear stained

If my Dad only knew how embarrassed I'd be

If any of my friends, come visit and see
This drunken stupor, in which my Dad lives
The drinks take away any love he could give

Sometimes, I look around at all of my friends
I envy their happiness, and the time they spend
Happily gathered together, sharing their love
Oh God send that to me, send it down from above

When I look at my Mom, how beautiful she is
If she knew how I loved her, then she'd know what she's missed
She's so angry she hits me, she's full of disgust
But it's with Dad that she's angry, she takes it out on us

So in this dark place, my heart's hidden again
Have I ever been loved, I can't remember when
I know this is not normal, I'm only a child
They say I'm not old enough, to know what's transpired

My heart tells me different, It says to me that I do
I know my memories are real, though I have not a clue
So they try to dissuade me, try to convince me I'm wrong
They think because I'm a child, they'll make me believe I belong

Mom and Dad, don't you see me, don't you hear me cry
I don't think you do, If you did you would try
You'd stop all the drinking, you never would fight
You'd love all your children, tuck them in at night

Mom, please look this way, I'm standing right here
I know you would see me, if you'd put down that beer
Your brain is in shadows, that's how it is when you're drugged
Mom and Dad, I'm begging, I just want to feel loved

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