by Salone Frazier

Created on: June 23, 2008   Last Updated: October 31, 2008

This is a hard subject to talk about, but I heard if you talk about it things will get better.My life as a child was not so bright at all, abused by my mother and other people around me. Things was different for me I was taken from my mother at an early age, three years old to be exact. Living in the home with my mother was hell for a child of my age at that time, not being able to get away from the pain was even harder. Crying because I was getting hit or being left alone in the home for days was crazy, not knowing when my next meal was going to be. A baby at that age should not have to worry about those things, but I did its sad but true. So once I got taken away from my mother I though everything would be fine, I was wrong very wrong but I had hope. Living with my grandmother was good she took good care of me, I really appreciate that.

Not long after my grandmother died that's when I was back in hell again, living with my aunt at age 14 my life was about to change all over again. The pain, the stress, was so unbearable I almost killed myself but reading the bible, and writing help me down that rocky road.So I though my mom was going to take me in after my grandmother had died, but come to find out she lost her parental rights.Yet in still I though she would at least make our relationship stronger at that time, but no she didn't my mother drink a lot so that was what had her attention. After my mom stop drinking then I was a little older around 16 or 17 years old. She still didn't want to make that bond, that I had hoped for. So I kept on with my life and going through these changes, my aunt had put me through.Well I left my aunt home after an argument and I went to my mothers I was 18 at the time. I stayed with my mother for three days, after that I went to Texas. To make a long story short I tried to get my mother to have that mother and daughters bond still, but it didn't work then and has not worked now.

Now I am happy with a family and kids, and she still not in my life as grandmother to my kids or a mother to me. Its like we are friends not mother and daughter, I call her almost everyday. I know and hope one day we will come together as mother and daughter.So I say for those who are going through this with there mother, to have faith and be strong. Moving on in your life will be something you have to do, you want be able to get through this without help of someone who loves you. Some people want understand what you are going through or what you have gone through, but the big thing is to stay on a straight path because like all things you will get through it. I have gone down this straight path without my mother, and I know that I will continue to do so without her.

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