by brave julie

Created on: June 23, 2008

So bright, so shiny, so warm
Happily smile and laugh when I was in childhood
A bright plan and dream happened in my brain
But since family went to pot, all hope were broken

I long for doing what I want and what I love
But I can not do as what I thought
I must sacrifice myself for my family
My family is my life, my all

I learn how to talk, how to walk and to run,
but I feel so alone and slop over

who really care me and give me love
of yearnings and questions, no one can give me a real reply

I had read your message and know more about you
Because these days I am so disturbed and painful
Many things wait me to do
I detest this fake world with too many masks

I hate father unintelligent
Cause family become poorer and poorer
He destroyed my all dreams
Cause I become a callous and silent girl

Paint in words to express myself
Crying when I hide myself
No one can see me and comfort me
Weep loudly and no one understand my bottom heart

I only have a small desire as my first dream
I want to own an IBM or Dell laptop
I should had bought a new one
But all money I earned were given to my family

My first dream was broken
I cried again and again
I impetrate god to bring good luck for me
But despair again and all hopes become visionary

I am a very smart and intelligent girl
Why didn't god give me such a warm hand
Life is so unfair and so cruel
I must get used to it

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