by Susan Zalenski

Created on: June 23, 2008   Last Updated: June 30, 2008

Hell on earth that has stripped you of all sanity.
Pain so deep that it is void of description.
Loneliness and despair that is with you every moment of every day.

There is no escaping the demons that are inside my head.
My mind spins with voices that will not stop.
I search the house for my fix, sobbing and shaking with every step I take.

I have now chosen the bottle and pills over all else.
I live in filth and constant panic tortures my body.
I no longer find the relief it once gave me.

I have reached the point of no return.
Family is disgusted and I don't care.
They tell me I will die, am I not dead already?

I have lost all control and I live and breathe misery every day.
And I choose not to stop.
I do not know how to end this nightmare.

For drug addiction has become my only lover.

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