by Amanda Rangel

Created on: June 20, 2008   Last Updated: October 31, 2008

Healing after the death of a parent shall never be an easy task. Whether it be your mother or father, your heart will never be the same. Although life may seem unfair at times... you have to force yourself to let go. It is never your fault if your parent has a sudden death. Your thoughts may haunt you of your last days with your mother or father. Wishing you would have held on tighter for that last hug, or tell them just how much they actually mean to you, will be thoughts that will cross your mind forever. There will never be another replacement for your mother or father. No man your mother may marry, or no women your father may marry will ever take that parents place! Although, keep in mind that a step mother or father does not wish to take your parents place. I personally know how it feels to have your world shattered when you hear those final words, "Your father is dead"! My heart was splashed with acid as it melted to my stomach.

My brain became numb to my every surrounding. Imagine being fourteen years old, and having your father plan his death to you. My father was in a long term relationship of nine years. Lilly was the only women he ever loved. Lilly left my father in the weakest moment of his life for a man with a large some of money. That drove him crazy! No matter what a great man my father was, for the reason of money, my father was not enough for Lilly. For two months, two dramatic months, my father told me how he was going to murder his girlfriend and them himself. Me being a fourteen year old child, was at a loss of words. All I could say was..."Daddy please don't"! I wish I had the intelligence I do now. Maybe I could have made him realize that my life would never be the same without him. On April 5th, 2004, around eleven p.m. the phone rings at my house. I got a rude awakening! A voice on the telephone said, "Manuel Rangel has been found dead on the side of the road in homestead,Fl along with his ex-girlfriend"! That was four years ago, but I remember it as if it were yesterday. Do you wish to know my secret of strength? My father is in a much better place now. My father may not be here in the flesh, but he is now my guardian angel. My father is with me more now that he has passed away, than he has ever been in any flesh appearance. Open your eyes to the miracles around you. GOD is on your side. The pain is over. Your loved ones in heaven are doing wonderful! Vanish your worries, and absorb their loving blessings!

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