by Kristen Alliegro

Created on: June 13, 2008

For my son.

My Little Star

Where does it all go,
All the time I once thought I had?
The world in my hands
Just waiting to be your gift
To pass on,
My legacy.

Dandelions you once kissed
As gently as you woke me,
Tiny hands touching
My cheek and spreading unadorned love
The seeds of your life;

So long ago it seems
Yet just yesterday's bend
Around a corner from which
I can no longer see

Try to grasp at the memories
Of your infancy.

Innocent and wise
So far beyond your time
Battles of will and to teach
Right from wrong
To tell the truth and never lie
My hair graying
My teeth grinding
I forget sometimes

My first child;
My son, my light and my life.
Overshadowed
With today and tomorrow
Goals and desires
For you, for me, for all of us three
How I wish I could make you
Just as happy and free
As you were in your infancy.

I miss you my snugglebug
I miss all those days
When I could be here
To comfort and play.

I've lost track
Of how many times
I've wished to turn
Back the hands
That slowly
Grasp hold tight
Firmly take you up into flight
Away from me.

I wish I could make right
All the wrongs already
In your short young life;
I wish I could fix
The breaks I know reside
Deep inside you,
Age aside, I know you ache
For the Mom you once knew.

The me I was before all this change
And I wish I could explain
How much better it will be
And already is from the then
That you perceive.

I wish I could tell you my love
Has not changed
And have you see it to be true
But coming into your own
You're starting to do
And defy what is my wish for you.

Already and so young
So far beyond your years
I see the man in you
And I long for the days
Of just us two
When I could hold you
Close to me and sing
Softly,
"twinkle twinkle,
Little star.."
And we knew I meant you.

My heart aches
And inside I break
Every time I realize
How far away
Gone and away
Are those simple days.

I hope someday
We find a way
To make peace
And find a new way
To sing and have you be
"twinkle twinkle
little star..".

My baby
Forever you will be,
No matter how far
You move from me.

Love,

Mom.

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