by Jessica Fox

Created on: June 12, 2008   Last Updated: October 31, 2008

I remember the day I birth to my first child. I'll never forget that moment. I went into active labor sometime between 11:30am and noon.my husband put me in the car but he was so scared he couldn't drive and had my great grandmother rushed me to the hospital.
When i got to the hospital I was diallated 2cm. Then around about 1:30 or so the doctor comes in and tells me that I'm fully dialated and there is no time for the epidural. I was only 17 at the time and i was in pre term labour. Eight weeks before my due date. And believe me at that point i was scared to death. Then my doctor told me i had to push. I didn't know what to expect all i could think about was my baby and how much this was goiong to hurt. And to my surprise it wasn't so much pain it was mostly pressure.And surprisingly after only pushing three times my baby boy was born at 1:42 pm.

I was so scared and he was so small. He spent about a week in the Newborn Intensive Care Unit hooked up to IV's and monitor with a feeding tube up his nose. Another week in a transisional nursery where he started to eat from a bottle instead of the tube. And he came home 13 days after he was born. And now he is a competely normal five year old boy. At the time it was the scarriest thing I had ever been through in my life. But as soon as it was over and I saw my beautiful baby boy. It had become the most amazing experience rather than the scarriest. Every first mother is scared. What if I'm not a good mother? What if I can't handle giving birth? What if I can't handle the responsibility of a child? What if the baby won't stop crying? What if I drop the baby? Don't worry, all those thoughts seem to disappear the moment they lay that sweet, beautiful, baby in your arms. And you realize that nothing else in this world will ever matter as much as that little baby that you brought into the world.
Then my second child came into the world four and a half years later. I wasn't nearly as scared the second time as i was the first. I gave birth to my beautiful baby girl on her due date and once again I was left no time fot the epidural. But thats okay. I think that natural child birth is much better for the mother and the child. The one thing that does stay the same no matter how many children you have is that feeling of love, life, and need that you get when you hold your newborn for the first time.

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