by Laney Rowland

Created on: June 02, 2008

"My Fortress"

Alone and yet not lonely

I take refuge in my isolation

And joy in my own little world

A world without care or worries

A world where I depend on nobody

In this place I can't and won't care what others think

Otherwise my refuge would be no more

Instead I keep it to myself and let no one in

This seems the safest place for me

My mind free as the birds outside my window

And myself free to be me

This place of mine is a fortress for my heart

And so surrounded by the strongest walls

It shall never be broken

This place is a safehouse for my body

And so it shall never be taken forgranted

This place of mine is like a paradise

And an inspiration for my less morbid writing

A place where I can only dream of the most beautiful things

The most peaceful places

No nightmares can torture me here

No pain can find me

In this place I can at least imagine for some moment

That my dreams are not hopeless

A place where the fact that nothing is impossible is actually true

But when I leave my fortress to return to the real world

Fear is all around

Life is all around and death is inevitable

Here in the real world, the real truly scary world

Everything is inevitable

Here, the blind do not see

The mute do not speak and the deaf do not hear

People suffer every day

Some who seem so happy, prosperous, are alone but not lonely

This is what I separate myself from

This is what I avoid

But that it affects those around me

Is not something I can ignore

And so lately I stay within my world more often

But the walls of my fortress begin to crack

The beauty of my paradise is fading

As my world and the real world

Begin to clash every day

And my refuge is disappearing slowly

I have but my writing to keep it alive

And the person I found in this

Now ailing, isolation to keep me going

And by doing this I shall not

Forget to depend only upon myself

Instead of those around me

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