by Stacie84

Created on: June 02, 2008

For the last few years I have suffered from what can only be described as obsessive thoughts. These range from horrible thoughts of bad things happening to loved ones, to me actually breaking the law, none of which ever come true but are still terrifying.

I keep telling myself these are merely silly thoughts and I should ignore them, after all everyone goes through tough times in their lives but the thing that worries me, is the fact there wasn't any trauma or any event in my life that could have acted as a trigger for these thoughts. In fact the opposite is true, when they began my life couldn't have been happier. I had the perfect boyfriend, good job, all in all a settled life. Until my mind took over.

It has been almost a year since my last bout and I honestly thought I had conquered them but now they are back. Because of the nature of these thoughts I am terrified of hurting those that I love so I have no option but to distance myself from them. I would never ever want to harm anyone either mentally or physically and I never have, but these thoughts are just so convincing and persistent that it is absolutely agonising. Luckily I manage them well enough for my family and friends not to be concerned, I just blame my busy schedule for not being able to see them as much.

However, It has been almost a fortnight now since these thoughts began. From past experience I know that they do generally tend to fade after a few weeks, so that is driving me forward at the moment, but it is still a troubled time. That's why I am so pleased to have found this topic.

I have been extremely encouraged by the fact that others are going through the same things and they can be conquered. I think the biggest obstacle with problems of the mind - are that there is a certain stigma attached. Mental Illness is an extremely serious and complex issue which needs to be handled with extreme caution and visions of padded cells and straight jackets can be terrifying. No wonder sufferers are reluctant to seek help for there issues. I prefer to label obsessive thoughts under problems of the mind. They aren't a big issue. Just an obstacle, that with time, patience and some well thought advice can be easily dealt with.

Thanks to this topic I will be trying out several of the tips mentioned in earlier pieces, at least I am confident now that it is just a case of finding which method works best for me.

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