by Julia Adams

Created on: May 30, 2008   Last Updated: August 02, 2009

If you could have a one-hour interview with any human being past or present, who would it be? The past interview of my dad! If I could just have that last hour with my dad to ask him just how did this happen?

The question is simple did he know that the procedure that day would end his life. Something that seems so simple, " I had went to his house that night before that BIG day."

I had been shopping at the Dirt-Cheap store that day and my wallet was stolen as I was trying to get the rest of the clothes out of the dressing room. Turned around and realize that my purse was sitting there open. That was the first sign of my personal lost without knowing it. I had made a mistake some reason I always carried around my birth certificate the original one with my dad's signature from the army.

I would ask him did he realize that night on the couch. When I said, "On top of me losing my wallet I had a dream the night before. I said, dad you called me from a pipeline and said you had made it to heaven. I was so amazed in the dream that I kept questioning you. You really did make it."

Well, naturally my dad said hell you saying I can't get into heaven and started arguing with me. The conversation ended quickly because my uncle who is presently and was then a preacher of the small community Baptism church was there to see my dad.

Later on I heard during the service that my uncle had said that night my dad had ask to be forgiven and was ready for the lord.

The interview sort goes two ways of my personal feeling of expression of my loss and satisfaction that dad was ready for his passing. As a result, of the arrangements that was out-patients he had pre-arrange his funeral by calling several people to be his funeral by carrying the casket in case something had happen.

I would tell my dad with the chain of events that had happen lead up to the day of the angiogram was done had pre-pare me that I was going to lose him and I understood now. Dreams, and the loss of something that was personal between the two of us "our birth certificate", and him asking me to watch and make sure that no one took advantage of mom. ? Love for my DAD Pumpkin Center! To hear my dad voice one last time YES! I would give my life to have the opportunity to hear him fussing and raising all kinds of noise about things I felt like then were dumb. Those were the important things I realize now. Because it was the only way he showed us he carted and make me tough for life and to survive. Dad I finally made it I am a Special Education teacher for Severe/Profound students my journey is beginning again. Dad I want you to know I am in process of adopting a little boy from Guatemala. Dad you would be proud of him. I will tell him how special you were to your family! Love you "Dad soon we will all be coming there to be with you!" (Tears are falling! As I am writing to my dad and as I breath in I cannot stop my tears! Just as if I were sitting across from you in that sun room at home speaking with you for that last time to speak to you.)

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