by Brittany Rose

Created on: May 22, 2008

Right now there is a million things I know I should do,
But I just end up sitting here thinking of you.
Call me pathetic, call me a fool,
But when it comes to love, I break every rule.
I try to go out, try to have a good time,
Try to put on a smile and pretend that I'm fine.
But thoughts of you continue to encircle my head,
Sometimes I don't even want to get out of bed.

I want to call you so bad but I know that I shouldn't,
I want to tell you how I feel but I know that I wouldn't.
Because I have to pretend that I really don't care,
When part of me still wants you here, and that's really unfair.
I thought I'd be fine, thought I'd easily move on,
But clearly that's not the case, now that you're gone.
I really wonder if you miss me as much as I miss you,
I'm afraid that you don't, but I'm sure that you do.
I don't miss the part of you that I really do hate,
I only miss the good parts but now it's too late.
Because it has to be over, it has to be done,
Because the bad parts of you have caused me to run.
I still think about the good times that we shared together,
And how I always thought our love would last forever.
Because nobody thought it would, I wanted to prove them wrong,
But I guess they were right, and I should have listened all along,
But shoulda, coulda, woulda, that's all I can say,
And because I let this love blind me, is why I'm so sad today.
I still think that maybe someday if we met again,
We could possibly start over and see what happens then.
For now I know what I really must do,
But how to let you go, I still don't have a clue.
It gets harder every day that we are apart,
I thought I'd be happier, but I'm left with a broken heart.
I'll have to take it day-by-day, step-by-step,
But memories of you I will never forget.
And if in the future, we do meet again,
I hope those sparks fly like they did back then.
Because it seems like no other man can live up to you,
Your kiss is the only one that feels honest and true.

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