by Jordan Brown

Created on: May 15, 2008

Enough.

Say goobye to happiness.

Say goodbye to being close.

Say goodbye to all things that made me smile.

Say goodbye to me.

It seems like I've changed so much over the past 4 or 5 months, and I'm not sure why.

I'm not the person I used to be.

I'm not the boy that makes you smile and blush.

I'm the jerk that you can't stand.

I've changed.

I was so tired of being walked all over, so I changed and now look at me.

I don't have anyone anymore.

The one person I can talk to I've only known for two weeks.

I'm scared to open up.

I'm scared to tell you what I really think, because then you will leave.

I'm scared to make a mistake.

I'm scared that I'm gone for good and I'm never coming back.

There are so many things I want, but I'm too scared to go and get them.

I"m too self conscience.

I want to be the best thing that's ever happen to someone.

I want to be the boy that all the girls chase.

I want to be the boy that's always on her mind.

I don't know who "she" is but i need to find her.

I need her to find me.

I need her to tell me how she feels.

I guess that now girls have all these choices of guys, I'm not really desirable.

I want what I had back.

That feeling.

LOVE

The feeling of it is can't be compared to anything .

The feeling of holding someone,

Feeling their heart beat,

Holding their cheek while you kiss them,

Making her bite her lip because she wants you so bad,

Staring at eachother for hours.

I want that.

Tell me you want that from me.

School is depressing.

I'm never happy when I'm there and it just ruins my day.

However I am finally doing well again.

But the people there are killing me.

All the drama,

All the annoying jokes,

All the creeps,

All the boys that are better than me.

You're killing me.

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