by Shomita Deb

Created on: May 05, 2008

Questions

What was I and who have I become?

To which overpowering force did I succumb?

Where is the girl that I once knew?

Can I get her back anew?

Who is this girl, who shrinks back in terror?

Where is the girl I once saw in the mirror?

With a warm wide smile and sparkling bright eyes

Where is that girl who could always rejoice?

Where is the girl who could always find a silver lining?

Where is the girl who was thankful every morning ?

Why does the day look so dull and gray?

Why is it so, though I continue to pray?

Why is it that today I am god fearing?

When I spent my yesterdays being god loving?

Why is it I look for yet another scapegoat?

And acquit myself with a self satisfying gloat?

Why do I blame it on the entire human species?

And if all else fails then on mid life crises?

Why blame the myriad responsibilities I have to bear?

When I know , I cant escape my share

Why do I figure out different reasons?

Excuses piling up ..one for every season?

All the tough times , I have to face

Why can't I do it with a little more grace?

Why do I blame it on dharma and karma?

Guiltlessly play victim in life's drama?

What I was and who have I become?

To which overpowering force did I succumb?

Such complex queries lurking in my head

Convoluted with all the junk that I fed

I am not beyond salvation , I thought

So am I going to just let myself rot?

On my quest to help me with detoxification

I found a magical mantra for mental simplification

With a 20/20 vision ..how could I still be so blind ?

All this time the answers were right within my mind

Here the powerful forces of good and bad abide

Constantly at war to overpower the other side

But when bad takes the fore and good the hind

Then, clarity from my ambiguities I never can find

So whenever in distress , I now look into the mirror

And chant this mantra to grant me valor

"ting a tong.. sing along..cling clong clang

Cynical devils, go away, don't poison with your fangs

Hope and optimism on my side, are a much potent gang

So try as hard as you can but I don't give a dang!"

With this magic spell I filter out the toxic

And everything else to that I am allergic

To revert to my inner self I could once trust,

I first scrub out the outer hardened crust

And then turn this stranger into dust!

whhhoooooooooooooossshhhhh!

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