by Lara Everett

Created on: May 02, 2008   Last Updated: October 31, 2008

Longingly, I prayed for the perfect love to enter my world, with complete admiration, love, and yearning to be near me at all times. I prayed to the Lord to send me my perfect man, my husband who felt all these things for me.

I traveled far and wide, dated, man after man. Until I found one whom I thought was perfect, we laughed, played, made passionate love. My perfect man stuck around long enough to get me pregnant with my daughter. I was so afraid to tell him, yet I expected him to be happy, which at first he had been. Then suddenly, as if it all hit him violently at once, he realized that responsibility was soon to follow. He left, as if great eagles of the sky picked him up and carried him away in secret.

He left me in some what of a bind, I was a pot smoking, booze drinking looser, who barley made enough money to pay her rent! What on earth was I going to do with a baby? With no one to help me? Well, since I don't believe in abortion and I HAD always wanted this baby, just not at that moment, my only choice was to keep the tiny baby growing inside my womb.

I cried for a large portion of my pregnancy, I had to quit my job due to the fact that I was diagnosed with Placenta Previa and my job at the time would have caused me to miscarry my baby, whom I had grown to be very happy about. Suddenly her arrival meant everything to me. So, I moved in with my sister, baby sat for my niece, which worked out very well for me.

When my baby girl came, was the day my whole life changed, one look into her perfect face, and I promised her my life would be completely different. The most amazing part of that promise, was that I meant it with my whole heart.

From that moment on, when she looked at me it was with complete admiration, when I'm with my baby, I don't feel fat, or ugly, or self-conscious in any way at all! I feel beautiful, important, needed, but most of all; I feel, for the first time, TRUE LOVE. A love I never thought was possible.

My baby looks at me as if I am the most amazing person in the entire world, I am perfect to her in every way. My arms are the only arms that comfort her when she is sick, I'm the one she runs to when she has an owie. I couldn't do anything to change that love between us, so my promise to change for her was true because I couldn't bare to hurt her on purpose.

I aspire to be all the things I've never been, for the sake of her becoming a woman I never was. I will work hard and be responsible, I have incredible amount of patients, determination, a will to learn more about raising her right. I desire trips to the park, eating right, laughing more, crying less, loving the little things in life with her.

Each day I succeed something, is a day I give her a better life; so I work harder every day! My whole life changed when my baby girl was born, for the better. I have a perfect love! Finally! I am admired completely! Someone yearns to be near me at all times, because her love for me is amazing!

God answers prays, the way He chooses to, we might not realize right away, but He answers our prayers, we just have to see that they were.

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