by Ann Hunter

Created on: April 30, 2008

I have not spoken to God in a long time.The last time was seventeen years ago,after my son was diagnosed with Autism.To be honest I really didn't speak to God ,I flat out yelled.I asked Him for help,mercy,favor.I asked Him for the life I had imagined.I did not receive an answer,so I quit talking.

This last summer changed that.I have been speaking with Him now everyday. I have still yet to figure out the occurrences of the summer,maybe it was to remind me,that I haven't been doing everything all these years without help,or maybe it was to get me to the point where I needed to ask for help.

Whatever the reason,I am now feeling ,and thinking a bit differently.None of these changes in me are earth shattering,but I notice them.
Simple things like uplifting one person everyday..having patience with my kids..having patience with my husband,and helping those that I never would have helped before.

In our town ,there is a Mission for homeless men.These men have all had what the majority of us would call "a normal life"but their addictions to the bottle,needle and women ,have taken over their life and they have lost everything.I look at some of the men at times,and wonder how in the world they have gotten to this place.I can't count how many times I have drunk too much ,and woke up laying on the bathroom floor.A few times I actually misplaced my car.

After the years of partying,I grew up.I got married and had kids.Thats life isn't it? As you age, your suppose to grow up and handle your responsibilities.No compassion what so ever for the people who don't.Well those thoughts changed after the summer.
For some reason,I started to volunteer at the Mission.Now don't think I have not had some serious discussions with God over this turn of events.There is a pizza parlor right next door to the Mission and,I have double checked many times with Him ,to make sure I wasn't supposed to be picking up a large pepperoni .
I am not sure what my purpose is yet.I am helping with the thrift store and the website .I also give a much needed womens view on various subjects.
Do I think that God sent me a sign ?I really am not sure,maybe.I am beginning to think God wants me to share more of myself.Not just with my family and friends,but with everyone.As far as the Mission goes.I am not sure if God sent me to help someone there.I have asked ,and asked for His guidance on that one.I guess, I will keep going until I hear Him say"GET THE LARGE PEPPERONI"

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