by OnYx

Created on: April 27, 2008

It's that point in time
I can feel it in the air, thick with fiery emotions
tonight is when it happens
I'll set out in the path of discovering a way
you don't recognize
I don't think you realize how, much I need you
how greatly I need those swirling reservoirs of pitch black
your eyes
it doesn't take a lot
to drive me insane
I could take all the psychosis that the world has to give

but those eyes of yours
stop me lifeless in my tracks
just one sudden glimpse
and I find myself drowning
in inky pools of the darkest ebony
those onyx eyes
seem to cut right through me
see right past my face
right into my mentality
with that deep intense gaze
you tear down my resistance
one by one they collapse like walls
you pick out my most cherished feelings
and bend them and shatter them and split them apart
until I feel like screaming
I'm left thunderstruck and shocked
a slashed clutter of emotions
and all this takes place
in just one instant
of that one swift momentary look
only to leave me pleading to see
those eyes of yours yet again
my head is throbbing and I see the outcome of uncured tears
whirl across my dream like clouds hiding the moon
it's you I need, your counterfeit smile and your desire for blood
if only something could satisfy the dehydrated craving
that pulls my judgment every excruciating moment
that transforms me into everything that I never sought after to be
but, oh, how can this be so divine
just how gratifying can a silly crush rise to a starving hunger
it's immoral, completely and entirely wrong
I'm betraying the very law of reality
as my mind stoops to that chained up obscurity that I have never known
I can't run any longer
I give myself to you
I'm so sorry
in my bitter state
I ignored all that's existent and true
all I require is you
when hours of darkness fall on me
I won't shut my eyes
I can't lie any longer
here I fall down before you
how long will I allow this go
I can't stand another night alone
in this vacant point in time the noise in my head
leaves me blind
how far will I go
until I see the unnoticed
I need to fill these vacant spaces
fill them up with your embrace
hurry quick before I break
there's constantly room for one more error
and tonight I've never felt so alive
even though I feel so frozen, so secluded
it's the first time I've ever seen you smile
only you can save me
you are perfection and I am damaged
I am weak and you are powerful
you are untainted and I am contaminated
and I'm too alive
so if you listened closely
you can hear the acidic words trickle from my lips
cursing the countless reasons that contradict your reality
with frozen whispers I pierce the reminiscence of the day I fell so hard
I had thought that I could resist you
I thought that I was strong
but that's when I realized you're different
that's where you proved me mistaken
and now I'm feeling up with a yearning that must be accomplished
but it's absent from my hands
I cannot control the borders between the real humankind and my dreams
that's why I suffer
now you recognize
I can feel it in the air
I hope that you can feel it also

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