by Angela Wagner

Created on: April 19, 2008

I can honestly say that multiple personality disorder is the mind protecting itself. I can say this without stuttering because I have been diagnosed with this disorder about eight months ago. I can tell you that this disorder is like walking through a oceanic storm until you become integrated and you become one. Integration doesn't hurt, it as a matter-of-fact calms you down and brings you back into the business of living. I have been integrated for about a week now and I have never been so happy in my whole life. I am starting to remember things about myself that I had long forgotten. My abuse started when I was four years old, it was from my cousin that was eighteen months older than I was. I had to split in order to survive, in order to believe that boys weren't really going to hurt me; yes even at four years old I thought that boys were more important than I was and that somehow I had done something to deserve the abuse. My next split came when I turned thirteen when the same cousin tried to rape me. Again I thought that I had done something to deserve what he tried to do to me, it couldn't have possibly been his fault! When this alter came she gave me courage to tell my mom so she could protect me from him. Without splitting my mind would have been completely out of control as a child. I was diagnosed as being bipolar when I first got sent to hospital at the age of 32. I was wrongly diagnosed and I went through so much for the last ten years until I meant my present therapist who correctly diagnosed me and then I changed Psychiatrists and was put on the correct medication. I can honestly say that multiple personality disorder is real and it isn't anything to play around with. So many Psychiatrists do not particularly feel that this condition is real, but they need to take their patient seriously and do the MMPI test before they make a judgment about that particular patient and their diagnoses. You can take this article for what is worth or you can read it and think that there is someone out there willing to come forward and talk about, something that most people with this type of disability would rather keep to themselves. I feel that people need to know the truth about what multiple personality disorder puts people through and that so many psych. doctors do not take them seriously. Thank you for your time.

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