by Jen Hudson

Created on: April 19, 2008

"on the mend"

Pretending not to notice
Pretending not to care
Waiting for my heart to mend
Knowing youll be there
I wish I could make promises
But I never keep the ones I make
On second thought I am not ready to give
Only ready to take
I feel selfish
I feel scared
So forgive me for shutting down
God, give me some answers
Let me be alone
Let me dream
Let me scream
My demons haunt me
The voices from my past
Why are the ghosts still lingering
I just want to know that I can wait (that this could last)
That you can too
The walls are higher than ever now
Even if I could break them down, I don't know how
Climbing them could be a full time job
I am not taking applications yet
I need to tear them down on my own first
If only I could mend my heart
But I have to do this for me
Not for you

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