So here I am, 41 and three quarters (Hey, the 3/4 matters, ok?) And I've just made a big fat decision. I'm going to become a single Mother. There, I said it, it's out there, can't take that back, you heard me! This is huge, and I wanted to share the experience with you.

First things first, how did I even GET to this decision? When I was around 31 or 32, I remember saying to myself, that if by the time I was 34 and I was not dating someone I thought might lead to marriage and children, then I would have a child on my own. Uhm ok, so that was 10 years ago. I got a little side tracked since then, and like lightening speed, my life has fast forwarded.

I have always wanted to be a Mom, and my biological clock was ticking loudly, in fact, it sounded more like a car alarm sounding on the street corner at 3am. I have been through my share of men, but nothing ever seemed to pan out. I'm not typically picky, in fact, I have dated all types of boys. Ones with jobs, without jobs, creative jobs, money jobs, tall boys, short boys, serious boys, stand up comedian boys, with children, without children, religious boys, and Athiests. Short, tall, with hair, without hair, you get the idea. I give everyone the benefit of the doubt, and over all, I think I'm a pretty easy chick, I'm not demanding or nudgy and while I do have a little baggage (a cute little floral cotton carry-on) I like to think that I don't possess the typical "Single NYC girl Neurotic tendencies" Hey, don't judge me, you KNOW the type!

So here was my crossroads. Do I renew my Match.com subscription for another 3 months and hope I meet someone perfect for me who wants to get married and start making babies within the first 4 months (Hey, it could happen) or take myself off-line and move on with my life and fulfill something I have wanted for as long as I can remember? Let me clarify something for just a second, while I have never been a rush rush kind of girl, I HAD to rush to make this decision. My Father has been battling cancer for many years and we got news that it had progressed to a point where an experimental treatment was basically his only window. In my mind I thought "I have to do this NOW. I want him to know I'm going to be a Mom. I cannot drag my heals any more, I need to do this to give him something to look forward to" There it was. That was my deciding factor. I was going to do this!

Now what? HOW do I do this? I mean, I wasn't even dating anyone! Do I go out with someone on a few

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