by Sommer Casady

Created on: April 15, 2008

I had just woken up from the sun leaking through my window. I could hear screaming downstairs. I had never heard my dad utter a bad word in my life but now that was all i could hear. He was always very calm and powerful and able to see the best in people. But now all he was yelling was about my mom and what a whore she was. I came downstairs with my little brother and my mother was on the bed crying. My dad was extremely angry and she told us to leave the house and she went into the bathroom and locked herself inside. He kept saying i'm going to kill her. Me and my two brothers went out onto our property and we didn't know what to do. Tears welled up in my eyes and my little brothers were already leaking out everywhere; he kept on wanting to go inside and help her. I had never seen my parents fight in my life.

Then i had never thought about our family; there was never any affection between my parents and even though they lived in the same house and had the same children there was a glass wall between them. And that was the day when it shattered. My dad had gone outside and started breaking everything insight then he came inside and yelled at my mom to get out of the house; i guess that she had been cheating on him and he had found out. I felt like i had been oblivious my whole life because this is the one thing in my life i couldn't have been expecting.

It's been three years since that day and i still don't know what happened. From what I know is that my mom never loved my dad but stayed with him because of us. That is what hurt the most. It felt like my whole life was a lie and she had dragged my dad into it also. She told me that for the past ten years that she didn't have any feelings for him. And it definitely didn't help that four months after that she introduced us to her boyfriend that she's known for nine years. Yes the hardest part was seeing my dad so in pain and when i asked him why he even married her if they didn't love each other he was stubborn and said that the only reason was because my mom got pregnant but i could see the pain in his eyes. I asked him again about six months later and he told me that they had loved each other and that he still wasn't sure what had happened; but one day she just decided that she didn't want to be married anymore.

I don't believe that she should've stayed with our family for our sake. I had thought that not seeing love and not showing affection was normal and now that i am sixteen i do not know how to show it or whats right that I'm feeling. I realize that everyone i start to get close to i push away. She has affected our lives more than she knows.

When my dad came back after storming off after the fight he kicked her out; but she ended up coming back. She told him that she would call the police if he didn't give us back to her and leave; but she was just being stubborn she didn't want to raise us. At first she went back to partying like she was in high school and i was made to grow up.

Parents should definitely not stay together for the kids sake. The best thing for the children is to see a loving relationship and not think that all of that anger is the right way to be. Divorce definitely affects children even if they can't realize it until they are older. The best thing is to tell them the truth no matter who's fault or how terrible and let the children know how much they're loved. The children will grow up and the best thing to do is that they aren't affected to much by it for the rest of their lives.

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